At my own pace

I’ve likely said this before, creating art or writing is usually a very isolating, individual process. Sure, talking with others to gain inspiration or to flesh out ideas or fix things that are bothering you can be part of the collective, but the actual act of crafting is a lonely process.

For me, it usually is relaxing as my mind gets whisked away in the moment of creation, whether that’s writing, drawing, painting or sculpting, I find that as is see things that need to be dealt with are, the next thing pops to the mind’s eye. Sometimes, usually when it’s a commission or making a piece for someone specific in mind, it can be much more torturous as it’s no longer about what you like or want, but now what someone else likes or wants or expects. It’s way more difficult.

At some point, that’s usually when the impostor syndrome kicks in and you’re convinced that you’re not good at this, you’re not going to be able to complete this project, or worse yet, the person you’re making this for is likely going to HATE it.

They won’t say anything, but you’ll know, and then it’s this whole big thing. I’ve tried to steer away from some commissions, but when it’s a paying gig, it’s a paying gig. I absolutely will not do commission portraits or drawings of specific people anymore. One really bad experience cured me of that. I’ve done a few good ones and got paid OK, but after one bad rejection, it keeps me from ever going down that road again.

This is supposed to be fun, a passion for me, and yeah, maybe make a few extra dollars for a vacation every few years, but really, I create to create.

Since the Edmonton Expo of 2018, and then the Wainwright Art Show and Sale of February 2019, I’ve actually not really stopped working. Usually, life gets in the way, work, family, whatever, and I set it down and pick up in the fall. Last summer, I focused heavily on getting prepared for the Entertainment Expo, so I sacrificed a lot of time that I could have spent outside, spending time with my wife, or even going for a ride on my motorcycle to get enough material prepared to take to the Expo. I think I ended up with 20+ pieces, only to sell four or five. I made my money back on the booth – which to be fair was more expensive for less space than I had previously, so I felt a bit like it wasn’t quite worth all the effort. Sure, I have lots of pieces available either for sale – RIGHT HERE ON THIS SITE… lol, or more stuff for the local art show. But, since then I’ve made enough new things that I wouldn’t even be able to display the stuff I made before, since we only get around 10 items at the show since it’s so popular and have so many artists now that we want to be fair to everyone.

This summer, I’ve not put any pressure on myself, because I chose not to do the Expo, and will likely try to get back in for 2020. That way I can have even more stuff ready, at my own pace, and I won’t feel so burnt out if I made a ton in the last two months only to sell one or two pieces.

I have been sharing much of my new work on Facebook (Kelly Clemmer Studios) and on Instagram @kellyclemmerart but it’s nice to have a little more space to show what they are, and what they’re all about.

So, the first question I get with my most recent stuff – OK, what’s with the octopus? Why not? For whatever reason, they’re fun to do, and people seem to really like them. Teacups, on chests, hanging in cages, for whatever reason I’m enjoying it.

Secondly, I started doing a koi fish for a sculpting demo/class I was doing, so instead of just doing one for the class, I decided I wanted to do more. So, I made three. Three cool little fellas. Then, well, if I can do a koi, why not a whale? Why not? So, I took a shot at the humpback whale, which turned out really well in my opinion, and an Orca.


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